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Name: Matthew
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Atlanta
Birthday: 7/9/1990
Gender: Male


Interests: Basketball, Halo 2, talking with friends, swimming, traveling, watching TV (Simpsons), and reading
Expertise: Math and Science and, of course, Halo
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Sunday, December 31, 2006

Another Year

Another has gone by, and this past one has filled my memories with the best of times and the worst of times.

I can look back and smile, remembering my friends and all the various adventures with them.

I can look back and grimace, remembering all my mistakes and shortcomings.

In either case, the past year has seen both the best memories of my life and the worst. Being with people that truly care about me, yet also losing such people.

A twisted and long year, and I'm glad it's over. Of course, there is only one rightful way to end such a bipolar year: with another such two-sided event that leaves me both happy and miserable. Following the recurring theme of the year, the problem is of course with some girl - my girlfriend in fact - and is of course started by some obscure fear of mine that has no holding in the planes of reality but might cause a huge argument.

Nothing new. I'm so used to such a situation that I don't even bother deigning it with my worry anymore. Good bye 2006.

My new year's resolution is to stop caring. I need to detach myself a bit, so I won't worry anymore.

My new year's revolution is to stop making friends and focus on keeping the ones I have.


Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Thou Art a Villain

I am a villain.

This time, no one did any harm to me. No one hurt me. No one did anything to me. This time, it was all my fault. This was a matter of trust and i failed. I betrayed my friend, hurting her. I did what I hate most. I am a hypocrite.

All those guys I hate so much, now I'm one of them. There is no worse fate. I'm akin to Davis and Asta and Robert and Yaro. I hurt her, my dear friend; and now I will never have that friendship back. Or not for a long time.

I shall reiterate once again, to make loud and clear: I have failed this test - of trust, love, and will.


Friday, November 24, 2006

You know what?

I was angry. [deleted main rant]

// Wow. I feel better now. Cool. I'm not mad anymore. Really. I just had to let off some steam.


Sunday, October 29, 2006

So there I was...

...without a clue. Walking into some strange church wondering what was about to happen. My only friend from Mill Creek with the foresight to show up was Robbie, and since only seven people were in our age bracket the odds of us playing each other in a ranked match were verrry high. Thankfully, I didn't have to dismantle Robbie in a game, as that would have been a very bittersweet victory.

Instead, I played against my various friends I had met from other tournaments. In particular, my fourth game against a friend from Duluth stands out, as before the match he asked me to go easy on him [in a joking manner]. I beat him in less than 20 moves...Other than that one game, all my victories were seamless against unknown people I care nothing about. I had one loss from the tournament's victor, some emo girl. So...

State of Georgia Grade Level Championships:

+ 4 - 1 = 0 // 2nd Place Sophomore Division

I'm quite content with a second place victory, though normally I'd be frustrated that I lost a game. That one loss surprised a lot of people in the tournament, as many people told me they thought I was the best player there...so that I kinda made me feel better about losing.

What really got to me though, was watching this International Master play 20 games at once and crushing his opposition. Robbie and I kinda looked at each other and wondered how someone could be that good. So of course, I stepped up to the plate and played this guy, someone with a ranking of 2430, making him the best chess player I've ever met/seen/played.

I lost, but he said to me after the game a few very simple words that meant a lot, in a heavy Spanish accent, "You're good." I played an IM down to the last few pieces, and even made him stop to think about his game against me [whilst he was playing 19 other games simultaneously]. That master, Carlos, he didn't lose a game yesterday, but Robbie and I came the closest to beating him. That means a lot more than any second place finish.


Friday, October 27, 2006

Carpe Diem

The day I've been waiting for approaches. Time to prove myself, see if I've gotten better. State of Georgia Grade Level Championships tomorrow...showtime.

People say I'm good; that I've gotten better. I'll find out really quickly tomorrow if they're right. Very quickly, and potentially painfully. Five games. Five wins. Can I do it? We'll see...

I've received plenty of support from you guys and gals; so thanks a lot! I'll need all the luck I can get, trust me. Let's hope for the best! I've trained, practiced, studied. I think I'm ready, but I'm quite nervous.

'There are those that said this day would never come; what have they to say now?'

It's showtime. Wish me luck.

-Matthew



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